I came here to learn how to collect information, but I keep thinking about the uncomfortable relationships I had in the past, and that's why I'm having a hard time. ^^;; especially when I was uncomfortable and ended up in bad relationships at the end of the day, I always felt like, "Oh, I'd like to get paid if I were to do this," and I felt like I was unilaterally involved in what my opponents had said (even if they didn't mean it. You know, interviews give you money, but this is something that energy vampires are excited about. I just feel like I'm a dried balloon flower. I'm feeling uncomfortable in a relationship where people are one-sided or lacking, especially because it's a personal relationship, and I'm not supposed to. And I think about it...