Fear. And shame. Every time you play chess, every time you learn, you open up the feelings that are lingering in me... I feel ashamed, and on the other hand, I feel relieved. Oh, it's not just me. I'm not the only one scared or embarrassed. Even when I put it online, I didn't want to lose, I was embarrassed, and I was worried that someone might be watching me, but I think overcoming this first would be my goal this month. I hope I can take courage and play chess that I like. Thank you.